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No landscape for a good underclass woman

by Elaine Jean Laberge

Presented at the First International Working Class Academics Conference

July 2020

LINK to watch the session: https://vimeo.com/442338535

Formatted PDF of the poem  

i scrub
i scrub
my skin raw
but i can’t wash away the stain of poverty

Yet

i scrub my skin with my red-worn hands
Ruthlessly with
hardcover
softcover
electronic
textbooks
academic journals

i scrub my skin
with theorists
Sociological colonial patriarchal
theories tangle
into a mish-mash of
barbed wire

my confidence
my creativity
Is destroyed
like metal scratching pads on slick shiny teflon
looks like the teflon frying pans
rejected
scraped
dumped (off)
discarded
at the corporate faux-charitable Value Village
Foucault
Bourdieu
Marx
Weber
don’t pay my tuition — my rent
don’t contribute to my retirement
don’t give me hope — even for a break

i scald my soul
with
the analytical
the theoretical
the generalizable
the unchangeable
But i can’t wash away the stain of poverty

i came out of the social underclass closet
on the Canadian higher education landscape
my skin
my body
my entire being
is
embodied
imbued
embedded
as a one-dimensional woman (Power, 2009)

Stigma (Goffman, 1963, 1959; Tyler, 2018)
Stigmatized
Other Othered Othering

Caste in a box
Outsider within (Bourdieu & Champagne, 1999)
Outsider without
we’re the “wretched of the earth” (Fanon, 2004)

we’re many subjects
revolting (Tyler, 2013)
disgusting (Lawler, 2005)
illegitimate (Haylett, 2001)
wasteful useless pointless

A disposable population
Moral outcasts
The underclass
Marx’s hated lumpenproletariat

The unwashed
The lower classes that smell (Orwell, 1963)
The hated, despised, ridiculed white trash
The deserving—undeserving
poor
battled out in the centre
while we live in the shadows and margins

You degrade me
call me (and my ancestors) white trash (Wray, 2013, 2006)
and then y’all hold white trash-themed parties

welfare queens
where’re the Welfare Kings?

We’re stigma machines (Tyler, 2017)
“Branded with infamy” (Adair, 2008, 2001)

Leaves me with bruises
a bloodied bloody mess
of bruise-stained hurts

my knees are shot to shit
from trying to cross the wrong side of the social class tracks
“Stay in your lane!”
you say

Slivers that crowbars
can’t dislodge
from trying
to climb the broken class ladder
“Back down to the bottom rung from whence you came!”
you say

You offer up
your stick and barbed-wire encrusted carrot
bury me alive and dead
with sufforacating student loans
generously topped up with your interest compounded daily

“Squandering our riches,”
you say
“You squander our richness,”
we don’t say

How many students are homeless?
no one knows
not yet considered an epidemic
might be another academic-career-booster
Canadian taxpayer-funded academic research topic

How many students go hungry?
no one knows
just another epidemic maybe?
just another oh-this-has-potential
Canadian taxpayer-funded academic research topic

How many students are from poverty?
no one knows no one cares to know
we’re not supposed to be here are we here?
poverty’s not considered an epidemic
never gonna be another
Canadian taxpayer-funded academic research topic

Poverty intergenerational poverty
it’s deeply embedded in my self-identity
part of my embodied being (Laberge, 2017; Adair, 2001)

The shame was bearable until university
a place I believed was never
never
ever
meant for people like me
i lived in fear
of being
on being outed and ousted

and then i was outed of the social underclass closet

and then i was ousted
pushed out
as a doctoral student
as a Vanier scholar
from my beloved discipline sociology
from my belief in Otherwise (Laberge, 2017; Elbow, 2008)
from within

of imagining Otherwise (Green, 1995)
because i imagined Otherwise

because i dared to critique
Power
The abusers
The users
The faux-teachers
The faux-social justice advocates
The faux-equity, diversity, inclusion leaders
The ignorers deniers
of social class
inequality inequity
marginalisation
exclusion
violence

Jacked-up capitalism
Rabid neoliberalism
Servitude neofeudism
150+ years of colonialism
Relentless burgenoning —isms
—isms-entrenched
—in Canadian university institutions
shhh there’s no classism no social stratification

Maya Angelou (1978)
yes, i still rise
but, i will move along

But
and you Canadian universities
you need to hear this
I’m no learned lemming
I’ve always been a moth to an injustice flame
I’ve never walked quietly
I’ll make a fuss
but I won’t go over the cliff without causing a ruckus
but I’m leaving

cause

Canadian universities
Your education promised a way out of poverty
Your venerated piece of paper
lauded as the great equalizer

NO

You broke your promise (Adair, 2001)
You continue to break your promise

“Your” taxpayer-funded Canadian university
It’s no “landscape for a good [underclass] woman” (Steedman, 1987)

Works Cited
Indigenous territorial map: https://native-land.ca/
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Elaine J Laberge

July 23, 2020

I’m     silenced    banging my head    ouch!

Sanctioned

Punishing me    myself            before you do

To hurry up and tell

My learning

My awakening

My inquiry through writing

The expectation of the academic violence is forgotten

The academic violence is forgotten

My soul is just a whiteboard

Not even a just get over it

No time for wonder    exploration in the stacks

solo learning

Seems like         “get out”

I’ve never had a voice like this

Now thistles being thrust down my throat

Rasping—hear the methodology story

takes            time                    sorry

You can fail me

No one looks like me

I’m an academic orphan